Every single cycle it's the same thing. The fear of another ectopic pregnancy, the fear of losing my fertility and never being able to have kids again hits me like a brick wall, a punch to the gut, and it knocks the wind out of me. I become paralyzed by fear and overwhelmed by my lack of control.
I can't even talk. All I can do is say, "Jesus." over and over and over again. He knows what I need.
Women, please cherish and respect you fertility. It is such a precious gift.